Friday, September 29, 2006

Music. Life. Grandpa.


I must’ve been 18 or 19 years old at the time and we were on our way to see my dad’s dad. I never saw my grandpa too much. My dad did not grow up with him around and neither did we. I knew he existed when I was 5 or 6 years old. But his presence has always been felt around my house. When we got there, he was lying down in a bed, unconscious, but something curious was taking place. One of my uncles was singing to him, and he was singing back! A day later, he had passed away at the age of 75.
He died doing what he loved most: singing and feeling music around. That passion was passed on to his seven children, including my dad. My “abuelo” always had a guitar on (I seriously think that he was born with it…), ready to sing whatever. A drink would be the usual requisite for singing. Little did he know that those drinks would take him to the grave.
He was a true musician. He lived the moto “women, booze, and rock and roll”. My grandma would tell me that he could be out of the house for days at a time, without a care, just going from party to party. He loved to party. I remember one of the many visits that we had to pay him at the hospital, he was in intensive care and all the way thinking of a party in a friend’s house. He’d say: “Estoy loco por salir del hospital, aqui no te alimentan ni te dan na’… hoy habia fiesta en casa de compay, sabes? Y me tocaba tocar,…” I would be perplexed at his remarks. Not to mention, that the nurses feared him.
This necessity of playing and singing (but not drinking…) got passed to us. I’ve been singing for 18 years and dancing for 16 years. My sister plays the guitar and sings; my bro sings… everyone in my dad’s family does something with music. My grandpa funeral was full of music and happiness, just as he would’ve liked. By the way, he did not like funerals, you would usually find him singing and drinking to the memory of the deceased person in a bar near the funeral home.
His presence has been always with me through music. Since before I was born until this moment. He had taught me that music is life and she’s always going to be there with you. My dad made a promise on his dad’s grave: he would pass the same passion and love for music to every member of his family. So he has done. I always thank my grandpa for his music, for helping me find my music, therefore giving me another reason to live.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

"How to..... be a teacher" (yeah, right...)

*** Hi, I'm Back!!! ....=) *****

This August, while many college students were eager to get back to classes, I was also eager to get back to college, but an opportunity showed up as an English teacher at the school were I graduated. I had to teach the language to seventh, eighth , and nineth graders. One of those classes was a writing skills class. I had a homeroom and the English Club. Yes, it sounds nice, but...
I realized what it really is to be a teacher. Literally, all the support you get is the room key, your books, and some lousy materials that are not enough to start the semester. For example: a box of chalks (one box's duration is a week or less), one scissors (that gets lost withing the week... and they do not give you another one), one pen ( please...), and so on. And don't dare to ask for chalks or other things in the office, they'll tell you that you have enough for the semester.
Then, the kids. Apparently, my homeroom has big discipline problems in the school. Fights, home problems, learning difficulties, among other things were the day's special. Even though, I tried to my best extent to deal with these situations, I still could not stop the 25 F's that I had to pass in one of my groups. Not to mention the discipline situations inside the classroom.
After all this, I came to a conclusion... being a teacher is like being a parent: there's no real preparation to be one; there's not an instruction booklet that can tell you how to be one. College is not preparing teachers... teachers nowadays have to be psychologists and have the ability to negotiate with students. I think that the classes in college are about application, but little content to use. I really feel that the curriculum should be revised and add psychology and other classes that can complement and preapare the teacher for what it is out there....